Love him deeply.. i really really think too much.. shouldn't doubt his love.. he really treats me well and i should be happy with it.. yup, baby.. i wont think so much.. i'm totally convinced this time. Similarly, i will also tell myself to treasure u more n more. I'm happy that you trust me and I trust u too. Love love baby~ (=
11:41 AM
Think maybe because i really love him a lot, that's why sometimes i may think too much, worrying that he will
leave me one day. Not because i don't have faith on him, instead, i'm afraid of myself, scared that i'm not
good enough for him. He has became part of my life now and i really treasure him. I hope he would be my last
and only guy in my life. Though many people have told me that I could find someone better, he is good
enough for me.
I want someone who cares and adores me wholeheartedly. He might not as passionate as last time but at least
he showed his care towards me.
I wish i could continue my love chapters with him till the day I'm old.
There are many things that I never try before and I wish to do with him together but there is always a but..
an excuse, a reason, --> waiting for the right time.
Though we can't predict the future, but if we could try our best and work hard on it, i strongly believe that
there is always a miracle.
6:49 AM
Monday, April 12, 2010
9th April- crazy shopping
I was disappointed that he last minute canceled appointment with me when i had already dressed up and
prepared to go out. I was not angry that he actually chose to meet up with his friends instead since it's Friday
but rather upset that he still do that to me though he was scared that I would be angry. In this case, why still
ps me? It's contradicting.
Though on the phone i kept saying that i would not be angry or what, but still v v v disappointed..
To release my anger, i called xq to accompany to sing. I spent $ 25 on shoes, $ 128 on that stupid hair
extension which kind of useless now, $ 33 on Kbox and i only sang for 2 hours plus $ 20 lunch. I was really
crazy. I shall stop all these crap from now on. Should learn to love myself more..
Past 12am, he came to find me 'cos i kept posting comments on my FB wall. It's sweet, at least he cared for
me but i would be ok even if he don't do that.
Seeing some of my friends getting married, i realized that i'm really getting old. Last time, i always thought of
marriage when comes to relationship. But now, i won't think so much. I just wanna concentrate on my career
first before doing other things.
7:38 PM
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Love continues. Chapter One.
26th Nov 2009- @ Stjames Powerhouse
It’s my first time meeting him and his friends @St james power house. I was still with my ex at that time. I never expect that me n him will b together one day. I wasn’t attracted to him perhaps cos I was attached, I chose just to be friend with him only, nothing else. But after chatting with him, I found him really a nice guy and thought that we could be good friends. I decided to give him my number eventually.
6th Dec 2009- My birthday
Reached home early. .He called.. wished me happy birthday.. he later asked whether I can go down to meet him for awhile. I was abit reluctant initially. It’s so sudden. I was shocked and touched that he actually bought me a cake to celebrate my bday.. yes, it’s really a big surprise. He’s the first guy bought me a cake just before 12am. I admit that at that time I only treat him as a friend even though I like his character.
9th Dec broke up with my ex after 2.5 years. I was sad really but grateful that I had his accompany.
I went to china on late dec and till early Jan then came back to sg. During my stay in china, I received calls from him and was happy to hear his voice every night before I sleep. I started to like him, to have feelings for him. However, I don’t wish to start a new relationship at such a fast pace. So I told him to wait for my reply when im back to sg.
12th Jan- Our first kiss
I finally decided to accept him.
11th Feb - His birthday
It’s his 25th birthday. My first time DIY on a picture frame for a guy. For the past few days, I have been spending my time shopping for materials needed for the frame and I have to do it secretly as I was scared that my parents will find out. It’s quite tedious for me. I was happy that he likes my gift. 14th feb is V day, although he’s not around. But I’m still glad that he could spend time with me on the 11th to celebrate his bday, our 1 month anni and Vday as well. I like his present. It’s sweet. =)
16th Feb-1st time @ his house
he's back from msia after Chinese new year. At night went to his place. The house is small and simple but i like it. My first thought was that if we get married one day, we will work hard together and earn money to buy a big house, also prepare a room for both his parents and my parents when they visit us. I want to treat his parents like my own though I have not seen his parents yet. I'm still waiting on..
5th March - 7th March – Chalet @downtown East
He booked a 3 days 2 nights chalet. Ya, it’s my first time stay overnight with boyfriend alone for a chalet. I really enjoyed the time spent with him and I missed it alot alot alot . We eat and sleep together. Bowling, watch the movie, Alice in wonderland and play poker cards. We had so much fun together. Really can’t wait for our next holiday.
well, what i can do the most for now is to treat him better and love him more. Mayb we now still in the honeymoon period, as time goes by, we might quarrel or unhappy over certain things, i just hope that both of us can overcome the obstacles that we might face in the future. =)
13th March- first visit to my house
I'm writing a new entry not because i'm free or what, in fact, i'm super busy! busy with rahil's essay.. don't think tonight can sleep.. haiz.. Just eaten a big bowl of bee hoon, damn bloated now.. HAHA.. and now i'm standing while typing this.
Went out with him to catch jack neo's movie, being human 做人，p/s: Jack neo doesn't know how to 做人in real life, really a big disgrace i should say. Anyway, the movie was great, we both enjoyed it very much. As usual, at night we went to McDonald to watch soccer match but this time i brought my work there. But felt slpy after an hour so have to go home then. )= he accompanied me till 3 am then go home.. kind of bu she de when seeing him off..
27th March- Movie & Dinner @ PS The Cathay
We had our dinner before movie at a chinese restaurant (forgot the name). I couldn't finish the 刀削面 that i ordered , it tastes weird. but the chicken cutlet and 小笼包 is nice. I enjoyed my day spent with him, now i really like Saturday the most.. HAHA.. too bad won't be seeing him next sat. He'll be in Msia for tomb sweeping.
The movie, Confucious, quite nice at the beginning but the last part gets abit dry and boring.. overall still ok.. The seats at the Cathay is so big and comfy, can fall asleep lol.. next time we gonna watch movies at the cathay more often.. hehe
