Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Love him deeply.. i really really think too much.. shouldn't doubt his love.. he really treats me well and i should be happy with it.. yup, baby.. i wont think so much.. i'm totally convinced this time. Similarly, i will also tell myself to treasure u more n more. I'm happy that you trust me and I trust u too. Love love baby~ (=
11:41 AM
Think maybe because i really love him a lot, that's why sometimes i may think too much, worrying that he will
leave me one day. Not because i don't have faith on him, instead, i'm afraid of myself, scared that i'm not
good enough for him. He has became part of my life now and i really treasure him. I hope he would be my last
and only guy in my life. Though many people have told me that I could find someone better, he is good
enough for me.
I want someone who cares and adores me wholeheartedly. He might not as passionate as last time but at least
he showed his care towards me.
I wish i could continue my love chapters with him till the day I'm old.
There are many things that I never try before and I wish to do with him together but there is always a but..
an excuse, a reason, --> waiting for the right time.
Though we can't predict the future, but if we could try our best and work hard on it, i strongly believe that
there is always a miracle.
6:49 AM
Monday, April 12, 2010
9th April- crazy shopping
I was disappointed that he last minute canceled appointment with me when i had already dressed up and
prepared to go out. I was not angry that he actually chose to meet up with his friends instead since it's Friday
but rather upset that he still do that to me though he was scared that I would be angry. In this case, why still
ps me? It's contradicting.
Though on the phone i kept saying that i would not be angry or what, but still v v v disappointed..
To release my anger, i called xq to accompany to sing. I spent $ 25 on shoes, $ 128 on that stupid hair
extension which kind of useless now, $ 33 on Kbox and i only sang for 2 hours plus $ 20 lunch. I was really
crazy. I shall stop all these crap from now on. Should learn to love myself more..
Past 12am, he came to find me 'cos i kept posting comments on my FB wall. It's sweet, at least he cared for
me but i would be ok even if he don't do that.
Seeing some of my friends getting married, i realized that i'm really getting old. Last time, i always thought of
marriage when comes to relationship. But now, i won't think so much. I just wanna concentrate on my career
first before doing other things.
7:38 PM
